Our plate

I got our plate back yesterday! It's sooo pretty! I reckon Samy and I make a pretty great team after all ;0) I'm so happy- this was one of the best dates ever!

Change

Do you ever catch yourself wondering how much life changes? Yes, I am talking to you.

At one moment you are as hopeful and blissful as life allows, and then things turn to shit. I am not speaking of my life as it currently stands, because I couldn't be happier :o) Earlier, though, I was looking at an old post I had on facebook, and I was reminded of where I was a year ago today. I wrote a note because I was depressed... I didn't quite know what it was that was making me feel that way when I'd once been so happy and it was all lost. I couldn't figure out why I was so sad- well, actually I knew then, but I couldn't figure out why things changed.

Now, I see that God had a bigger plan for me. Even when I doubted Him with all the "why?"s and "how will I go on?"s, He knew. My God is such an awesome and loving God. He knows me better than I do myself- and He knew, when I didn't, what I need. He knew what would make me happy, but more than happy, He knew what would give me joy. He answered my prayers and gave me so much more than I could ever have hoped for. I am happier than I have ever been in my life... truly and completely happy. My soul is at peace and I wish for nothing but love and happiness for all those who have been a part of my life, meaning you. I hope all of you are at peace wherever you are, and if you find that peace has not yet found you, keep praying... keep your head up, keep picking up the pieces, and find encouragement in God, for in Him is the peace that everyone spends their lives searching.

Happiness

Last night and today were especially important to me. Several events took place which made me realize just how blessed I am to have my sweet Sam. I have come to believe, with great care and undoubtable evidence that he loves me. He truly, truly loves me... for me. He takes me as I am and judges me not. He motivates me to work harder, listens to me complain, holds my hand, soothes me when I feel sick. He sends me sweet text messages just because, gives me flowers, stares into my eyes until we're interupted and longer, holds me so safe in his arms. He assures me that no matter what happens in life with school, family, work, money, stress... he will be here for me, as I will for him, that there's little in this world he wouldn't do for me. He is honest with me no matter what the circumstance and makes it easy to talk to him about anything and everything- and we do. He lets me know each and every second that we are together or on the phone that he loves me unconditionally- in the touch of his hand on mine, in the intensity of his eyes when they meet mine, in the sweet and caring sound of his voice.

He is my Sam, and I love him. I love him for having been my best friend for four years now, for having always been by my side, for having forgiven me for wrongdoings, for understanding me when it feels like almost no one else does. I love him for having listened to me cry through all of the roughest parts of my life, when I felt like my heart was broken and I could never love anyone ever again, when I hurt others and felt like the worst person on earth. I love him for loving me enough to give me time and space when I needed it, for standing on the sidelines and being the best friend I needed. I love him because he loves my family, because he is so willing to learn about what and why I believe what I believe, because he tries...

I love him because his happiness is my happiness and my happiness is his.

Appreciable exhaustion

Wow, this week has been incredibly hectic:

M: med-surgII exam
T: research exam, work 7p-7a
W: sleep til 12, clinical 2-10p
Th: meetings starting at 10a, class til 430, meeting til 5, dinner, nap, work 11p-7a
F: sleep til 12, clinical 2-10p

and here I am... :sigh: a very stressful yet productive week.

All in all, I feel pretty dang good. Exhausted but good. I want to fall on my bed and sleep til the Tech vs. A&M game tomorrow, but I have the urge to clean my room. It's pretty messy, and I haven't cleaned it well in- well, I can't remember. I've been working/clinicaling/studying/testing too much. I shall clean.

Tech is gonna kick ass tomorrow!

I.V. League update

Tonight we were dominated. 28-6

No es bueno.

Playoffs next week... umm, I'm not quite sure that'll turn out.

A pic of the team -note: these are NOT our happy faces after total domination :(

Blogging is my form of procrastination

:sigh: I should sooo be studying right now.

That aside, this weekend was everything I needed it to be. Samy came and we had a really great day Saturday. We went to this really cool arts and crafts place and painted pottery. It was so cool :o) We always have have so much fun together.

We also saw Mr. Woodcock. It was pretty funny. I liked it at least. One of those goofy, take nothing from it kind of movies. Oh well, we had fun. We also went to a park/veterans memorial and read from our novel. It is getting really really good!

I want to write more, but I will be a good student and study a little more before my first medsurg II exam @ 5. AHHhhhh! Before I leave though, here are pics from this weekend.

Football and sandals

Had another football game tonight- but I played like crap. Oh well, it was fun. Just a game right? I'm on two teams now :) so that's pretty exciting. One for nursing (we're the I.V. League... cute huh?) and the other just a bunch of friends. I find that while I'm not a great football player, I'm getting better and better! My throwing has improved tremendously, especially when I'm on my all girls team (less rushing= less pressure). Hopefully I'll be playing QB on both teams occassionally, so that'll be fun. I've realized lately how excited I am about sports. I ABSOLUTELY love to play sports!!!! I will probably be playing slowpitch softball when I'm fifty. Seriously.

I'm excited... (maybe I say that too much- but I truly am a very happy person)... that Samy's coming tommorrow!! I could really use a hug right now, butI need a shower so badly. I smell like dirt and sweat :-/

I need to start studying for my first Med-Surg II exam. It is going to be so friggin' hard. Tonight, after Sam reads to me, I'm going to the lobby or library to study. I have to. Six weeks of info crammed into one exam. CRAP!! Luckily, my advanced pharmacology exam and concept map are moved to next next week. :sigh: That will make life so much better. Only med-surg and nursing research exams next week.

Random, but I think I want to buy myself something that I recently found, these super-duper cool sandals. However, because I recently got two tickets, one for speeding and the other for stupidly running a red light (ha!), I am having to practice delayed self-gratification. It'll be worth it I think ;)

Anyway, I need to shower...