Thursday, September 4, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
i suck at coming up with titles
It looks like I'm finally making some progress at a few goals I have. :o) it makes me feel accomplished. This hard work is finally paying off. I started reading a new book: The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards. It pretty neat so far, though I'm only 7 pages into it :-b I realized when I started it that I don't think I could ever be an author. I guess I'd never really thought about it, but they have to come up with a LOT of adjectives for a reader to get into the story. Especially in the beginnnig... you have to get a good picture of what's happening to be pulled into the plot. And that mean's lots and lots of description. I'm not sure I could do something like that... I have trouble enough with coming up with a title for my posts. Go figure.
I think I want to find a new way to wear my hair. Maybe I should get a new, thinner curling iron to spruce things up a bit. It just looks a bit bland to me. I don't want to cut it off though... I don't think. I've wanted it long for so long, I'd probably be really upset with myself if I cut it. I don't know, because on the other hand, I want a new look. I'd love to learn how to do that sultry, wavy type of curl. But I haven't a clue. Oh well, guess I'll figure something out.
I'm hungry.
I miss you Bink.
I'm glad I'm getting to spend time with you Andi.
I love you Samy.
So I was thinking about it this morning in my dream, and I realized something. When I left for college, it was just Bink and Andi at the house. They got to spend a year together while I did my own thing. Then I got to spend a year with Bink when she moved to go to college. Now I've moved back home with Andi and Bink is on her own. Next I'll move off or stay here or whatever and Andi will be with Bink. Then after Bink graduates, I guess we'll all be doing whatever we'll be doing on our own. Its pretty cool that it worked out that way. We all got to spend a year with each other all mixed up like that.
Okay, I want to read some more. Until later...
I think I want to find a new way to wear my hair. Maybe I should get a new, thinner curling iron to spruce things up a bit. It just looks a bit bland to me. I don't want to cut it off though... I don't think. I've wanted it long for so long, I'd probably be really upset with myself if I cut it. I don't know, because on the other hand, I want a new look. I'd love to learn how to do that sultry, wavy type of curl. But I haven't a clue. Oh well, guess I'll figure something out.
I'm hungry.
I miss you Bink.
I'm glad I'm getting to spend time with you Andi.
I love you Samy.
So I was thinking about it this morning in my dream, and I realized something. When I left for college, it was just Bink and Andi at the house. They got to spend a year together while I did my own thing. Then I got to spend a year with Bink when she moved to go to college. Now I've moved back home with Andi and Bink is on her own. Next I'll move off or stay here or whatever and Andi will be with Bink. Then after Bink graduates, I guess we'll all be doing whatever we'll be doing on our own. Its pretty cool that it worked out that way. We all got to spend a year with each other all mixed up like that.
Okay, I want to read some more. Until later...
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
BIG
I have a very BIG idea that struck me today. How realistic it is, I'm not quite sure yet. I've gotta do some research first, but the thought excites me. It could make a huge difference in the way my future will pan out. What to do what to do? Well, for now I'll keep my big idea to myself and those very close to me. Pray for me please, that I make the right decision and keep the Lord in all my thoughts. Thanks.
Mira
Mira
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Won't back down
This has got to be a new favorite song...
I have happy thoughts right now. Be happy. I am. Stop telling me to be happy. :o)
I have happy thoughts right now. Be happy. I am. Stop telling me to be happy. :o)
Thursday, August 7, 2008
a beautiful day
So, I was told yesterday that I have weak eye muscles. Now I have to do eye exercises. Yay. But aside from that, yesterday was a very good day. I got a new hair lady and a new 'do. Its rather cute, I think.
Today, my sis Andi and I are going to this new Asian coffee/tea shop that's supposed to be rather fabulous. I hear it's very quaint, with plenty of oversized couches for lounging and reading a good book. I'll get to continue with my current- Koontz' Velocity. This is my first of Koontz', but it was well recommended, so I'll just have to see how that turns out. In the meantime, Samy and I are reading two trilogies together. I am so excited to finish the last of the twilight series.
The other day, work ran late, and instead of getting off work at 7, I didn't leave until 9. Well, as I was walking out to my car, I call Sam and find out he's parked right next to me. He'd been waiting patiently since 7 with the last book of the series. I'd been wanting it for a year now, and he was so sweet! He'd had it reserved all the while. It came out this month, and there he was to surprise me with it :) It was so sweet! I looked at him with tear-filled eyes (I felt so horrible that he'd waited in the parking lot for 2 hrs!) and felt like the most blessed girl in the whole world. It was the best ending to a 14 hr day of work.
Anyway, I've got to jump in the shower. We just walked the dogs and I'm afraid I smell like it.
Below I've attached some pics from mine and Sam's last adventure :) More to come later.
Adios.
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Today, my sis Andi and I are going to this new Asian coffee/tea shop that's supposed to be rather fabulous. I hear it's very quaint, with plenty of oversized couches for lounging and reading a good book. I'll get to continue with my current- Koontz' Velocity. This is my first of Koontz', but it was well recommended, so I'll just have to see how that turns out. In the meantime, Samy and I are reading two trilogies together. I am so excited to finish the last of the twilight series.
The other day, work ran late, and instead of getting off work at 7, I didn't leave until 9. Well, as I was walking out to my car, I call Sam and find out he's parked right next to me. He'd been waiting patiently since 7 with the last book of the series. I'd been wanting it for a year now, and he was so sweet! He'd had it reserved all the while. It came out this month, and there he was to surprise me with it :) It was so sweet! I looked at him with tear-filled eyes (I felt so horrible that he'd waited in the parking lot for 2 hrs!) and felt like the most blessed girl in the whole world. It was the best ending to a 14 hr day of work.
Anyway, I've got to jump in the shower. We just walked the dogs and I'm afraid I smell like it.
Below I've attached some pics from mine and Sam's last adventure :) More to come later.
Adios.
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
Split
Have you ever experienced a moment in your life where your emotions were completely split? I don't mean torn in two directions in the decision-making sense. I mean you felt two emotions so wholly and immensely, yet they were so completely opposite.
I have done some very good things in my life. And I have done some things I'm not proud of at all. The thing I most regret is that my actions have caused others to hurt with an intensity I still cannot fathom.
I look back on my short-lived life and realize that...
...that I have seriously, seriously hurt several people. Of their forgiveness I am truly undeserving, and I understand and accept that. While, in some instances, there were circumstances at hand that I could not control, I certainly could have responded differently. In hindsight, I now see how incredibly selfish I was. I am so sorry. I was not mature enough to think about the repercussions of my actions, and I certainly was not as open to the wise advice of others as was given me.
My God, forgive me for the pain I've caused these people, the anguish I've put in their hearts. I have not yet forgiven myself for what I've done, and while I've confessed it to You on numerous occasions, I know I will not feel that forgiveness until I can forgive myself. Lord, please help me. Help me to feel your love. Help those I've hurt to accept my sincerest apologies and deepest regrets. Help me to learn from the vast mistakes I've made, and most of all, please help me to be most like You.
While I couldn't be happier in the relationship I am currently in, I fear I lack a part of me as a result of this pain I have in me from the pain I've inflicted in others. I need to let go, to forgive myself. Of that, I'm really just not that sure I can do. God help me.
I just have so many reminders, and it is incredibly difficult to overcome them at times. I will continue to try. I will continue to pray. But KNOWING that I have broken three hearts...
One, at least, I know, has forgiven me. Another I'm pretty sure, but still doubt on occassion. And the other... well.. I just don't know. I think I'm probably the most vile person, though he'd never say that... perhaps his family would. I come here, humbled, knowing I have wronged you. And I ask for your forgiveness. Yes, I have done so before and meant it whole-heartedly then, but I still do not feel forgiven. I still feel your pain though we never speak. I am sorry.
I don't even know if you'll read this... probably not. But know that you will always be dear to my heart and one of the best persons my life has ever known. Though we've grown apart, to say it lightly, and our once passionate and devoted love has morphed into a friendship, I will always love you as my dear, dear friend. I wish you the very best in life and the very best love has to offer. I hope you find a girl who astouonds you in grace, beauty, and an immeasurable reciprocity of love for you. I thank you for all that you have done for me and my family. You just don't know how blessed I am to know you. Again, I ask your forgiveness, and hope you know that I will always be your friend. God bless you...
All my love,
Miranda-danda
I have done some very good things in my life. And I have done some things I'm not proud of at all. The thing I most regret is that my actions have caused others to hurt with an intensity I still cannot fathom.
I look back on my short-lived life and realize that...
...that I have seriously, seriously hurt several people. Of their forgiveness I am truly undeserving, and I understand and accept that. While, in some instances, there were circumstances at hand that I could not control, I certainly could have responded differently. In hindsight, I now see how incredibly selfish I was. I am so sorry. I was not mature enough to think about the repercussions of my actions, and I certainly was not as open to the wise advice of others as was given me.
My God, forgive me for the pain I've caused these people, the anguish I've put in their hearts. I have not yet forgiven myself for what I've done, and while I've confessed it to You on numerous occasions, I know I will not feel that forgiveness until I can forgive myself. Lord, please help me. Help me to feel your love. Help those I've hurt to accept my sincerest apologies and deepest regrets. Help me to learn from the vast mistakes I've made, and most of all, please help me to be most like You.
While I couldn't be happier in the relationship I am currently in, I fear I lack a part of me as a result of this pain I have in me from the pain I've inflicted in others. I need to let go, to forgive myself. Of that, I'm really just not that sure I can do. God help me.
I just have so many reminders, and it is incredibly difficult to overcome them at times. I will continue to try. I will continue to pray. But KNOWING that I have broken three hearts...
One, at least, I know, has forgiven me. Another I'm pretty sure, but still doubt on occassion. And the other... well.. I just don't know. I think I'm probably the most vile person, though he'd never say that... perhaps his family would. I come here, humbled, knowing I have wronged you. And I ask for your forgiveness. Yes, I have done so before and meant it whole-heartedly then, but I still do not feel forgiven. I still feel your pain though we never speak. I am sorry.
I don't even know if you'll read this... probably not. But know that you will always be dear to my heart and one of the best persons my life has ever known. Though we've grown apart, to say it lightly, and our once passionate and devoted love has morphed into a friendship, I will always love you as my dear, dear friend. I wish you the very best in life and the very best love has to offer. I hope you find a girl who astouonds you in grace, beauty, and an immeasurable reciprocity of love for you. I thank you for all that you have done for me and my family. You just don't know how blessed I am to know you. Again, I ask your forgiveness, and hope you know that I will always be your friend. God bless you...
All my love,
Miranda-danda
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