Ideas

Like its Poison

I am excited about this weekend. Less now, sadly enough, than two hours ago. I think much can be gained from the encounter. Questions will be asked we do not know answers to, hidden feelings will be brought to light, truths will be discovered. I know you as I know myself, but still... always... there is more to learn.
That is why I am excited.
I want to spend the weekend being challenged. Growing. Personally and with you. Learning about things I knew not before. Smoothing out the wrinkles.
I want true intimacy. To know the depths of your soul.
You are my love.

A patient of mine today, perhaps my favorite patient I'll ever have, shared some very good advice with me.
1) After complimenting my beautiful engagement ring, she said, "You know its not the ring that matters at all. Its the meaning of the ring and the measure of the man who gave it to you."
2) You should never follow a recipe just as it says, especially when baking a cake. The secret to baking a good cake is by not overbaking it. You know when its truly done when the edges of the cake pull away from the pan.
3) Never take for granted your parents. You have only one mother and one father. Cherish each of them because you won't have them forever.
4) Makeup can just about always make a woman feel better.
5) Use baking soda like its poison.
Thank you my sweet friend. I will visit you again.

It's been a good day.

Taking charge

Yesterday was my first day to be charge nurse.
I think it'll start happening more often.
Not sure if I'm ready for that, especially after the new year.
I am learning so much.

Need to start saving more.
The wedding is less than 4 months away!

Mmmm

I am so in love.
Sam, I can't wait to marry you.
Shrimp scampi is cooking in the kitchen, and it smells wonderful.
I'm hungry.
This is one of my new favorite songs I think.

Bella and Edward make the perfect couple.
The soundtrack to the movie is very good. I keep listening to it over and over :o)
I've been trying to put up engagement pics on facebook and the picture loader thing won't work for some reason. Later maybe.
Here are a few.
I miss my sister.
Andi, I'm glad you stayed the night last night.
By the way, little girl, you left your phone charger here. Guess I'll be seeing you tonight ;)

I am so happy.
Oh yea. pics...

Ode to The Wonder Years

No work tomorrow. Then four on. I'll be exhausted after next Monday.
Oh! I move into my apartment next weekend :) I'm super psyched. I've been getting stuff little by little to fill it all up. Think I've got most of the stuff I need, except perhaps a washer/dryer.

So I found the new soundtrack to the Twilight movie. Apparently it's already topped the charts and the movie hasn't even been released yet. Ohhh... whether to watch it or not :-/ I just don't know. I've got the perfect image of Bella and Edward in my head, and so far the previews I've seen have completely let me down. I don't know if I want to taint all the memories of the story by watching the movie. But, then again, I'll probably change my mind by the time the movie debuts.

I'm in need of a workout. A good ab workout. Cardio hasn't been a problem lately. I'm still running as usual, but I want a good core workout. Suggestions?

So the wedding is set for April 19,2009 <3
Oh my! So much to do in so little time!

I miss taking time out of every day to write. To just sit and think. To not have any music on, occupying every space in my mind with idle noise. I want to make time for this again. This and a time for meditation. To talk with God like I He's my friend. My fearful, wonderful, all wonderful friend.

Today, my dad and I ran errands around town and got a few things taken care of. I got to witness a very wonderful thing today. One of the places we stopped at was the hospital patient accounts office. (My dad went to ER a while ago and we had to go get the co-pay taken care of.) ......... Nevermind. I don't really feel like typing out the whole story. It's really long and I'm not into it anymore. I just got a little sad.

Buzz kill, I guess.

Guardian Angel, hmmmn. I've yet to hear you.

Do dreams mean anything?

I miss my friends.

I need to release a little bit of bitterness that's holding onto my heart like a calcification to my left anterior descending artery- the widow maker, so they say. I need to let go and have a stent put in.

I feel like not typing anymore, because nothing I'm saying makes that much sense to anyone who doesn't live inside my head and understand that my train of thoughts is not a train at all. It's more like a train wreck. And it frustrates some people. So I'm sorry if I've frustrated you with my rambling. I'll begin again another day.

Perhaps tomorrow.

cheerful
always smiling
hard working
excited
eager to learn
sometimes impatient
too responsible
faithful
quirky
sleepy
ready
a red raider
exhausted
supported
emotional in church
too compassionate
a nurse
strong
vulnerable
in love
loved
truly happy.